if one day, i was to leave this world .
what will you do ?


now, nothing seems to be able to mend it up.
but, a chance is all i need.


if only, death struck me soon.
maybe i won't be that 痛苦 anymore.


i'm sorry to have all this feelings and thinking.
but i can't help it.
life is meaningless.

weixian back to the past on 5:17 PM

today is a relatively special day for me.
maybe no celebration or what.
but, i still feels happy that this day came.
because whenever 13th of each month strikes, it tells me that me and you have been going through together for another month of our life.
today marks the 5th month.
happy 5th baby!



anyway, please do not think so much about what i've said.
please do not feel uncomfortable.
i realise, i always think and not do, thats why things get messy.
someone told me this...
*someone : do you love her ?
*me : yes
*someone : just stay together and slowly make it work

from that on, i realise i've been acting as if i'm pms-ing.
think too much, telling you stuff that hurts you.
i would like to say, baby, i love you.
lets slowly make this work alright? :)



ps : i wonder when you will see this. lol

weixian back to the past on 8:59 AM

simple events that took place since the year 2011.
e.g. peiguan's birthday, my pop gradution, 24km road march and ulysses platoon 2's chalet.


24 km road march was a disaster.
it felt as if we were tricked.
it was simple, yet a long and tiring road.
walking from east to central.
it really make you realise one big thing.
one will never go for a stroll soon after 24 km road march because you are tired of walking.


pop gradution was great.
saw my fellow mates.
it was sad that i'm unable to join them for the gradution parade.
main reason ? sick ? another ? the freaking idiot csm.
anyway, i realise, despite how joker, how cold i can be at times.
i'm still a human.
emotions still rises.
after seeing them pop, i can feel my tears gonna flow out.
i controlled it. ( cause of my own principle )
i knew, it might be the last few time i saw these fellow mates who i've been spending almost everyday of my life with them for the past 4months.
i was happy to pop, but sad to leave them.
but there's a neverending dinner in life.
one have to leave or be seperated someday.
only thing i wish, is that these big guys, will succeed in their life in the future.
thanks ULYSSES PLATOON 2.


peiguan's birthday was a hit and a disaster.
knew him since secondary 1.
the best guy i've ever met even though he complained alot.
anyway, got him a small present, hope he like it.
went out for steamboat and came back around midnight.
and that's where disaster strike.
sanford got drunk and slapped/hit for no reason. ( or maybe i haven find out the reason YET )
peiguan's iphone 4 got stolen.
police were called.
everything went haywired.
sorry bro, wasn''t there for you. hope you don't mind.


not that i'm biased towards people with tattoos.
this time, they really show and make me understand that tattoos might not be THAT artistic at all.
it was hilarious, stupid and childish to keep on saying that you have a tattoo and you are threatening people, WTF!
i just hope, this guy, who stole peiguan's phone, will just rot and die in hell. thank you.


ulysses platoon 2 chalet.
this will be short.
quite a number of us attended.
drank and smoked.
all commanders from my platoon attended.
sadly, something disastrous happen too.
ron fall inside a drain with asmin's bike.
i feel sad for ron, for his wounds.
get well soon bro!
got home today, rested well and good to go.

weixian back to the past on 9:05 PM

spend my time with baby on big occasions, eg. christmas / new year
it was very nice to spend my time with her, enjoy it alot.


sadly, i dont know why.
i realise, both of us always quarrel on big occasions.
sometimes, the way you treated me seems so cold.
am i really your loved one, or just someone who you think you can trust.
please dont mis-lead me.


a new year has began.
i'm gonna act on my new resolution.
save money, make baby happy.
live life happy.
need to change my attitude towards life.
must be more responsible.


dont know why am i blogging this anyway.
fucked it.

weixian back to the past on 3:54 PM

army life is kinda fun at times~


28 nov to 4 dec - field camp.
8 km road march, basha tent, shell scrape, turn out and sleeping at mud.


7 dec to 9 dec - sit.test.
12 km road march, basha, tests and lepak!


ippt, drill competition, recruits night.
silver, 1st place for "U" and AWESOME night!



23rd dec ( thursday ).
16 km road march.
book out at 10 pm.



28 dec ( tues )
RE-IPPT

GOLD!
260 cm, 9.1 sec, 58 reps/min, 16 reps and 9.21 min.
Games day~
2nd for captain's ball.
1st in MASCOT!!



29 dec ( wed )
BOOK OUT AT 12pm!!
LADIES NIGHT AT ZOUK.
 
 
30 dec ( thursday )
wait for baby to reach at around 9.15 am.
hug her to sleep <3
bball at 8.20pm at 907 bball court.
 
 
i am so inlove with BRUNO MARS - JUST THE WAY YOU ARE



Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say
When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)
Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say
When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are
When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah


ps : beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.

weixian back to the past on 1:05 AM

heartache, so what ?
suck thumb lo.
thats what army teach me.
sighhhhhh...

weixian back to the past on 8:03 PM

2 months and 18 days of not blogging.
seems like this can't serve to let me remind of what i've been doing.


anyway, a great thanks to the people who wished me on my birthday.
and, a even greater one for those who spend it with me.


on the 5th and 6th itself, i went to V4 and PowerHouse with PG.
though its been some time since i last met him.
anyway, it was fun on both of the days.
been so long since i last vomitted, guess my liquor level went down.


13th november
baby stayed over at my place.
gym-ed awhile.
met up with vivien and guo hao at gek poh to go jurong point together.
met jasper and zikun.
went to town.
they got me a white sperry and fred perry shirt.
thanks alot guys, i love it.
stella joined us for dinner.
had waraku for dinner and valentine came to meet us at waraku.
had alot of good food at waraku, play-ed some games.
i didnt expect a cake man seriously.
you guys shocked me with it. thanks so much.
wanted to lan but it was full.
weiren and zig was at volcano.
pool-ed at pomo and went home at around 12+ am.
enjoyable day!


17th nov 2010
went to vivo with baby, jasper, bryan and zikun.
ate barcelos grilled chicken.
max benner chocolate for desert.
it was great.
book in at 1835.


18th nov
BTP starts.



a great thanks again for those enjoyable days.
and happy belated birthday to wan xuan ( though you wont see this )

weixian back to the past on 6:36 PM